It’s something unpredictable, but in the end it’s right. I hope you had the time of your life.
-Green Day
There are many reason why this song is my favorite. The lyrics are spoken so true, LIFE is unpredictable, but everything we go through, good and bad, is for a reason. Whether we can’t see it in the present, it’s always right in the end.
This year has definitely had its ups and downs. There were many wonderful and heartbroken firsts this year. I learned more about myself, and am learning to live a more humble life. Knowing when it’s right to speak up, and when it’s best to just let things be. Learning to let go of the things I can’t control, and to keep reminding myself to live in each moment openly and freely.
My appreciation for life has truly been a big lesson this year. I was fortunate to find someone who loved me, and I loved him. He showed me that life isn’t promised, communication is key, weakness is strength, and vulnerability isn’t always a bad thing. Although our time together was short, I wouldn’t trade any of it for the world.
Life also showed me that it is also long lived. My great grandmother showed us, even though we may grow a little slow, and need some extra care and assistance, it doesn’t stop our sass from coming through. It does not stop our laughter, nor does it stop us from making more beautiful memories.
Life is a precious gift. And those that continue to be in it make it so much better. My friends that continue to be family, with their own great chapters coming to a new start, or a new end. But is it really an end? Because when something ends, it’s making way for something new to come through. I am so lucky to have the people I have in my life. Being gone in another state, feeling major FOMO when my girls get together and I’m missing, but, I was never missing from the big events in their lives. Engagements, babies, heartbreak, new careers, though we may not be in the same room, we are always there for these moments.
Family keeps growing. And family continues to show me that they are my rock. No matter how far they are, they are always there. Through the good times and the bad times, man have we shared so many. Especially in this year. All of us going through something, like anyone else, but we prove to hold strong for those that need us, even if we’re crumbling inside.
I got to see the land of my grandparents. I fell in love with a country I had only heard stories and seen photos of. I got to live in this country for two weeks, experience part of my culture, fall in love with everything it had to hold. So much so, that it pained me to leave. I wish to return one day, and perhaps buy a home, so that my feet will forever touch there.
I’ve learned that even though you love someone, it’s not always best to keep them in your life. Toxicity is something I don’t want. Although it hurts, especially when these people are family, it’s best to say you tried than to continue with unhopeful pain.
Went into the new year with a career. Ending the year growing my opportunities within the same. Learning new tools, and knowing I am worthy.
Learned to fall in love with myself. Flaws and all. There are days I feel meh, days I feel pretty, and days I feel beautiful—nothing can break my shine. Because of this, I came to learn I attract the same type of people.
This new decade will bring many more beautiful memories, heartbreak, lessons, love, happiness and more. And I’m ready for it.
So here’s cheers to a new year. A new decade. 2020 let’s do this, because no matter what, I’m forever grateful. ❤️